当我
-洗苹果既时候
“洗多几下啦，你知吾知D苹果点运嘎？D人就甘用脚踢嘎！”
-洗新餐具既时候
“你竟然吴用洗洁精？上面有好多细菌嘎！”
-帮猪肉调味既时候
“你就甘试D生猪肉啊？你知吾知猪肉里面有绦虫嘎？！”
-洗底裤既时候
“你日日系度刷牙吐痰都仲敢讲D衫放入去既？”
-将书包放上沙发既时候
“岩岩放过系地下度嘎！！”
-雨天出门既时候
“阵间换左条裤你先好入门啊，成裤脚都是泥！”
-企图接近距部电脑既时候
“洗左手未啊你？”

昨晚做了一个梦，梦到自己又回到了学校，在由来自不同阶段的同学混合组成的班里准备考试。
梦里气氛是如此紧张，以致于我早上乍醒时重重地松了口气。
然而当我回过神来开始回忆梦境的时候，竟觉得梦中冲刺考试时的感觉很亲切，很想重温。

念书念到我这个阶段，该考的都考了，该过的也都过了，怎么说也算是熬到了尽头。
现在的我还是个学生，却没有了考试的担子；生活任我摆布；时间随我打发。
以前，这绝对是我梦寐以求的日子。
可是当我拥有这种日子的时候，我却感受不到它有多美好。

对于现在的生活，我有种承受不起如此之“轻”的感觉。
一个没有考试的学生，看似轻松，却倍感沉重。

maybe i should say undecided future, i don't know, my mind is so messed up from the talk with her yesterday. now i know, maybe i already knew, that she always wants to taste some "fresh meat", so as to see if i worth the commintment, hence the proposition of taking a break from us for a while. since i have made myself clear on this--i can't bear the thought of any other man touching her, she can't proceed with this little project of hers. however, the wonder remains.

even though when she first mentioned this proposition to me i accused it as a crazy idea and couldn't believe she was seriously considering something like that, something so destructive to our relatinoship, now i'm not so sure. yes, i still wouldn't let another man touch her, but the idea of us taking a break deoesn't seem so crazy now. i know she is ahead of and more matured than me in dealing with our relationship since like forever--her mind is always more clear about what we lack and what we need in order to go down the road of being together, moreover, she knows what she wants from this relationship, while i bury my head in my own problems. maybe taking a break is just what we need right now, i think it's crazy simply because i'm not in a stage where i'm able to see things clearly. but still, i can't say yes to it. maybe someday i will, who knows.